Yes, it's October 9th, and you wonder where I've been? School started, I began a new job, I'm on the P.T.A. Board at Chase's school and frankly life got more than crazy. I seriously cannot find enough time in a day to do everything I want to do or need to do. Clearly, I need to prioritize. I have to go to work which is not an option, but how do I get to all of those other things? Just when I feel my head spinning out of control, I realize that I need perspective. Isn't that what God does for us? After driving down I-40 earlier by myself with precious cargo, I realized that it's not all about the minutia. The clean sheets, the vacuumed floors, and the clean, folded laundry. I have felt very stressed about how to do it all, since especially right now, I feel like I'm doing about 50% with everything. I guess all that really matters is that I try to do most of my percentage with my kids, but how? Prayer. I need to focus more on prayer and clarity on how to pray. I have to confess that I'm not the best out-loud pray-er, or even the best quiet pray-er. Frankly, I'm kind of an ADD pray-er. I tend to get started on something, and I end up somewhere completely different. Today in church in Hickory with my parents, I found myself in a seriously ADD prayer moment, but then I looked over and saw all three of my very different children, and I realized that I think God sometimes wants us just to be. Just be present and listen. So I did, and I heard three little boys wanting mom's attention. I'm going to try this week to let the minutia go, and hopefully find some spots to just BE with my boys. Three is a lot, but it's also a blessing in so many ways. I never knew how completely different their personalities could be, but I thank God all the more for everything they give me and teach me.
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